My Son Is Damaged Part 2

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Name: Linda Valentine
Email : lindav2000@mediaone.net
Date: 27 Sep 2000
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Today is September 27, 2000. I think I am still in shock caused by the damage my only child received through the "psychiatric system". Now that I am a member of Support Coalition International directed by David Oaks (dendron@efn.org)I finally fit in somewhere. My son's disability and disorders are my disabilities and disorders. By that I mean I live through the pain, the torture and endless nights of sleeplessness, etc.

From 1995 till now I have learned probably more than most mothers could possibly learn about drugs, the system and neuroleptics.

My husband made a computer for me and this opened up a whole new world. My world was crushed and like my son I wanted it to end because it was so painful to watch him twitching, pacing, drooling, rocking-in-place as these drugs were intended to do. We were told that these drugs would "change the thought process". I didn't understand what that meant at that time. I do know now that it means DAMAGE AND DEFORMITY of the person forced to take these "mind altering drugs".

I think back to the 18/20 years of my son's life and remember the years he was so vibrant, strong, full of life and loving. These feelings are removed very fast with the neuroleptics. I read about the "frontal lobe", the "receptor changes", etc. It is horrifying!

To take my only baby and turn him into a raging, drooling, apathetic human is outrageous!

I found more humans similar to my son when learning about the "system". Most of these people are drugged & damaged. They are then Conserved by the Public Guardians Office (unless the family knows about Conservatorship). They are then kept in hospitals locked up. It is called "stabilization". The true meaning of this is "neuroleptic poisoning". When these people do not talk back, appear well sedated, walk strangely, miss meals, sleep all hours, then and only then are they "stabilized". It is just another word for "blunting the thought process".

If you study these drugs as I have you will find out one of the ingredients mixed into them is the same ingredient found in RAID/THE BUG KILLER!

Talk about repulsive! I could not sleep, eat or function when I finally learned about insecticides in these neuroleptics.

In 1997 I finally met David Oaks thanks to my new computer. I don't remember how I found him but I thank the creator for letting me have the opportunity to talk to a real live human who knew exactly what I was talking about. He did not ignore me, he did not cut me off as the psych-ward personal and staff did over and over. He listened and then he explained that this has been going on for decades. He explained that finding out about psychiatric abuse, fraud, lies, coercion will enable me to help others to understand that their children can also be trapped in the system just like my son, my only child. I never thought I would be writing things like this at this stage in my life.

RAPS was created in August of 1997 with the help of David Oaks! My first contact was a mom from Houston who was already a member but had no computer. We talked weekly by phone and she & I wrote letters sharing our horror stories with each other. It made a difference to let it out. It made a difference to know others were in the same position as we were.

When the last DENDRON (a small newspaper)came out David had listed me as a sponsor for relatives & allies. I received hundreds of phone calls and many letters and information. I was still trying to cope with my son's withdrawal and re-admittance's to psychiatric treatment centers. But by this time my husband had become my son's Conservator. We were almost tricked into thinking that the certificate I had stolen from my son's room (I was not allowed to view his room but I did and stole the certificate)was merely a formality. The "doctor" had LIED TO US! We quickly called an Attorney and she told us we had three days to petition the court. If we did not petition the court the "psychiatric system" would own our son and his brains and body. We would probably not be allowed to visit or see him. I learned that this goes on all the time and I remember an older lady crying outside the psychward because this was done to her child and she was not informed or had any knowledge regarding this procedure. She was told to leave the facility and that they could not tell her anything without her loved one's permission. That means if your loved one is "drugged", they will not be able to talk to anyone! Especially the family!

Continuing with RAPS was just what I needed. Humans to cry with. Humans who understood the pain of this unjustified poisoning of loved ones against their will.

At this time I had several other horrors going on in my life. My mom was dying of cancer back in Mass. and I had to go to be with her for the last days of her life. She chose Hospice. Hospice is not for everyone. You give up your rights to be medically treated with modern drugs and apparatus. It was not a nice picture. I spent the last 5 days laying across from my mother whom I loved so much. She was my listening partner for all these years and now she was leaving me alone with all this other stuff. We did get to talk for about 10 minutes before she went into a coma. My sister administered the Morphine. I just couldn't deal with any drugs at all. The patch was in place on her chest and the concentrated liquid morphine was placed in her mouth every so often. Lets face it, it's just another way of killing people. That's how I see it! I watched her wrinkle up, quiver and what scared me the most was being told not to give her any food or water. She died on October 15, 1997. I do miss her so much.

It wasn't over for me yet. The arrangements, the costs, the house and helping my brother & sister get situated needed to be addressed.

We started by stripping the house (an old three decker)floor by floor and getting rid of junk, antiques, etc. Then the Probate issues were worked on by all four of us. I was the oldest and my sister & brother who were both born with Friedrich's Ataxia Cerebullum, needed to placed in Disabled, Elderly Housing. That issue we worked on and ran into minor problems here and there. My sister who is a year younger than I already had an apartment so she left mom's house with all her belonging. She stayed and cared for mom all through the illnesses. My brother needed help as he had lived in mom's house for over 20 years and did not know the ropes! We helped him and he is now settled and happy.

In between that and my son's placement in a board & care 3000 miles away from where I was at that time we ran into problems that involved drugs. I got calls from the B&C that they had to use HALDOL on him because he was "agitated". We had explicit instructions NOT TO USE NEUROLEPTICS, but as most people know these facilities DO NOT READ INSTRUCTIONS other than what a "psychiatrist" prescribes. We also had letters from specialists stating that NO NEUROLEPTICS SHOULD EVER BE USED on our son. I had all I could do to keep my heart from skipping beats but time passed. I came home by Christmas 1997 and was in deep mourning for the loss of my mom. My sister (the one with Frederich's Ataxia Cerebellum)came down with pneumonia and was hospitalized in critical condition. I was now 3000 miles away from my sister but I used the phone to keep up to date on every event that happened to my sister. I had to fax numerous papers regarding "drugs" that she could not have under any circumstances. Of course the hospital involved didn't appreciate any of this. They want full control and they want to use any drugs they choose even if the drug should not be used.

This went on for over a month until my sister was able to get up and into her wheelchair. She was allowed to go home and a personal care attendant came to assist her each and everyday. She is okay right now but pneumonia seems to be her downfall. She has had pneumonia many times in her life but has lived through it. Both my sister and brother are in wheelchairs but can function enough to live in Disabled/Elderly Housing. I am so glad that my mom would not allow any DRUGS TO BE USED ON THEM!

It's 1998 now and I have been married for 28 years. That itself is an accomplishment. I met my husband when we were teenagers and we married in 1970. We were both brought up Catholic even though we don't use any religion at this time.

My son is still being tossed around from psyche ward to board & cares. Locked facilities with many rules and some of these rules are ridiculous. The people locked up have to earn points in order to gain a pass. My son could not even stand in line to get food so we made sure that his needs were met and that food was saved for him. I ended up taking him home so many times and trying to help him without any help helping me! It is hard to do. I did it for many long periods of time but he always ended up back in lockup. No one is told how hideous "withdrawal" is. No one is told that "withdrawal" can continue for years and that DAMAGE will be seen as your loved one is weaned off poisonous neuroleptics. When I say "neuroleptics" I also mean anti-psychotics and anti-depressants and I am not talking about people who choose to take them and have control over their lives but people who are forced to have these chemicals put into their bodies and brains. I use to wonder why so many homeless people had "movement disorders"?? Now I know why. People would call them vagabonds, bums, whatever but until you talk to these humans and understand that they DO NOT WANT TO BE VIOLATED, DRUGGED OR USED FOR EXPERIMENTAL PURPOSES then and only then will you understand. I understand.

Right now I live near San Joaquin Psychotherapy Center which is the only place where someone can go for confidential therapies that uses no force, no restraints, no pepper spray, no neuroleptics unless the client chooses to do so. People can be weaned off of these poisons the right way. The doctors here are caring, considerate and know what is going on in the pharmaceutical industries. Just watch the commercials on your TV. There seems to be DRUGS for every emotion OR sickness. I know people want quick fixes but neuroleptics are quick, they can SHORTEN YOUR LIFE SPAN by 20 years. They can cause numerous problems with your liver, respiratory system and brain. Be careful what you ingest. Know every detail of the drug not just the little printout you get at the pharmacy. Go into databases and learn the truth.

You can contact me anytime through Support Coalition International. I have already met hundreds of people searching for an answer other then "mental illness". Mental Illness has not been proven and there are NO TESTS AT ALL TO CONFIRM any genetic defects. Genetic defects have been proven for disabilities like my sister and brother were born with. They could not walk until around age 10 and with help from someone holding each arm. I don't know everything but I do know that neuroleptics damaged my son and it has been documented.

One last thing, I lost a brother in 1994 to AIDS. I watched as he deteriorated in front of me. He was in an accident in the 80's and given tainted blood in Houston, Texas. Part of his head was severed by the windshield of his van and many bones were broken including ribs. He had a steel post inserted in one leg also. He was a Marine and the Marines attended his funeral. My brother died at the hands of professionals using blood they collected from "sick people" and those people were paid for that blood.

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